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Sunday, September 14, 2008

Undeserving

I was reminded of a verse today as we read in the word at NCCd. Psalm 8:4 says...what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? Religion teaches us that if we don't measure up then we will be cursed but if we continue in good works then we will be blessed, as if the will and power of God were at our fingertips. This week was an amazing week that showed us the immense love and provision of our Lord even when we don't measure up. As part of the message taught us today, God sought to cover Adam and Eve from their shame without requiring anything from them. He provided a solution to their need. This amazing God is still at work in much the same way today. A week ago the stresses of finances along with finishing Calebs room and getting the new nursury ready, future transportation since we have already outgrown the honda, amongst other things was wearing heavily on us. I tend to lose sight of how God works and think that if I can't fix it then it can't be done. But God proved me wrong this week. For example, we were able to completely move Caleb into his new room this weekend (there was no carpet a week ago), land an awesome deal on a very new 7 passenger mini-van (yes... I drive a mini-van..I have arrived) we will be able to get rid of the honda and come out of this with no car payments...How? God did it. That's it..we couldn't so he did. Yet in all of this I feel so undeserving, like who am I that God would be mindful of me and my needs? Who am I, in all my sin, to deserve this? On top of this, I was blessed at worship this morning just by a brother being willing to pray with me for me and my family. Can't remember the last time somebody offered to do that. So thanks Jason, that meant more than you probably knew. Who am I that these needs, financial to spiritual to home life would be met? The message of the gospel speaks to the question and says that even when we were dead in our sin, Christ died for us so that God does not see my wretchedness but instead the righteousness of Christ covering me. So I repent of my sin and my shortcomings and pray that God would continue to work in me for this recovery and I thank Him for His provision and grace.

1 comment:

Kim Stokes said...

Yes God is an amazing God. When we find ourselves in a place with issues biger than us is when we realize just how undeserving we really of of His grace an love for us. Isn't it awsome to be in that place, kneeling at the throne of Jesus!! I am so happy for y'all.
I can't wait to see the new mini van. I hope Melissa is doing good. Let me know what the doc says tomorrow.
Oh, by the way I started a blog.