Goodbye '08

What an amazing year these last 12 months have been. Our lives have changed so drastically and when I look back at it I can clearly see God's hand at work in the lives of of our family. Family meaning my immediate little nucleus and extending to Melissa's side and my side. It's been an amazing journey to say the least. We started the year with anxiety from our old church, uncertain which direction to go. We were in integral part (or so we thought) of the weekly operations but felt called to something more. We left solid ground and found ourselves in downtown Macon full of uncertainties. The only thing we seemed sure of was that this was where God wanted us. To be apart of something new that He was building. To see his desire to redeem this city through all these people was amazing. So the first change of '08 came there. Shortly thereafter we found out we were pregnant with Baby #2. No one can really prepare for life with 2 kids. With 1 you can both share the duties needed to provide for that child but with 2 your contribtion individually to each grows tremendously. Sarah Kate was born 11/24/08 and despite a scare she is completely healthy. We saw 2008 bring both of our families together. Not that there was a divide outside the obvious geographical differences. We have been able to worship weekly as a family. I cannot tell you (whoever you are out there reading this) what that means to us to be able to have both of our families together especially for worship. Amazing, and again God at work. We saw 2008 bring me out of youth ministry and into leading a missional community from my home. I joined the praise band at NCCd which normally would have stroked my ego quite a bit (and still does to some degree) but has also taught(teaching really) me humility through my inexperience. We have seen our finances improve through the grace of God and a little discipline. But most importantly 2008 showed me the Gospel. While 2008 was a great year, the truth is that I am a still a sinner saved by the grace of God. Like Paul says, sometimes I even feel like the chief of sinners. What amazes me about the Gospel is not only the enormity of God but how I am still pursued by Him. But not just me. He pursues you as well. You who are reading this, He is pursuing you. His desire is to redeem you just like He has redeemed me. I like how paul writes in Romans that Gods love was demonstrated to us in this, that while we were still sinners Christ died for us. Amazing stuff. Happy New Year.

Merry Christmas

From our family to yours, we hope you have a wonderful, merry christmas. May we all remember that Christmas is not about presents, it's not about anything other than Christ. May Christ be the center of everything that your family does today. May we all remember that He is the present that we should be thankful for. That eternal life given by faith in Christ is what we are celebrating. The coming king who would bring salvation to all who place their faith in Him. Happy Birthday Jesus. We praise you and celebrate your coming and the salvation you bring. Thank you for the sacrifice that you made for us. May our lives be a reflection of our praise and adoration, and thankfulness to you and may you be glorified in all we do.

And then there were four

There really is nothing that someone who has gone before you can say to prepare you for life as a family of four. It seems as though everything has changed and we had only just gotten used to it the way it was. My daugther, my second child, was born this past Monday and though keeping my sanity has been a major focus I can honestly say that it has been pure joy. I wondered from the day we found out we were pregnant if I would be able to love another child the way I love Caleb. Would I be able to divide my time without leaving one out or feeling neglected? Would I favor one over the other? The truth is that 5 days in, none of these fears have materialized. It's really cool how our hearts can expand and our capacity for love increases. This blog has been my story of Gospel transformation and how I am beginning to see the Gospel for what it is. One of the things that I have come to understand is that the Gospel is love. The Gospel says that God so loved the world... As my heart increases it's capacity to love one more child it's pretty amazing to think about our heavenly Father and his capacity to love his children.

MC Night Out

So today our MC spent some time together outside of our home and just had a fun day out. We all ate together and then saw the new movie "fireproof." If you haven't seen the movie please go check it out. Especially married couples, even if you marriage is perfect you should check it out. I remember when Melissa and I first got married someone told me that love will get you to the altar and it's a lot of hard work after that. In a society where the divorce rate is over 50% and people marry and divorce out of convenience, we should all be reminded from time to time that marriage is a sacred covenant between you, your spouse and God and that it takes hard work to make it work. I was convicted by the movie to be a better spouse and am sure many other husbands would be as well. One of the coolest parts of the movie for me was where the husband was describing the things that frustrated him about his wife...about how she constantly rejected him and after all of his efforts to love her she spat in his face. And the question was asked "How can you love someone who constantly rejects you?" The gospel become so evident in this moment because it showed the immense love of christ in our failures. In our constant disappointments and rejections, the many times we spit in his face and are determined to do things our way, he still loves and persues us. Despite our rejections he still persues is. I spent a lot of time thinking about my wife today and what I can do to be a better husband to her. I thought about 1 corinthians 13. I have always thought of this as a measuring stick to my ability to love. If i am not patient then I don't love. If i am not kind then I do not love. If i remember every bad thing that was done to me then I do not love. Then it dawned on me that this is not how I love but how God loves because God is love. There is no way that I can measure up to those perfect standards of love but God can. If i understand that God loves me in this way then I can better love my wife and God for that matter in the same way. So anyway I thought it was a great movie, and hope that if you haven't seen it that you will. Also, please remember our family in your prayers as we get closer to the birth of our second child. Sarah Kate will be here Nov 24th and we're all getting very excited about the new addition to the family.

Undeserving

I was reminded of a verse today as we read in the word at NCCd. Psalm 8:4 says...what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? Religion teaches us that if we don't measure up then we will be cursed but if we continue in good works then we will be blessed, as if the will and power of God were at our fingertips. This week was an amazing week that showed us the immense love and provision of our Lord even when we don't measure up. As part of the message taught us today, God sought to cover Adam and Eve from their shame without requiring anything from them. He provided a solution to their need. This amazing God is still at work in much the same way today. A week ago the stresses of finances along with finishing Calebs room and getting the new nursury ready, future transportation since we have already outgrown the honda, amongst other things was wearing heavily on us. I tend to lose sight of how God works and think that if I can't fix it then it can't be done. But God proved me wrong this week. For example, we were able to completely move Caleb into his new room this weekend (there was no carpet a week ago), land an awesome deal on a very new 7 passenger mini-van (yes... I drive a mini-van..I have arrived) we will be able to get rid of the honda and come out of this with no car payments...How? God did it. That's it..we couldn't so he did. Yet in all of this I feel so undeserving, like who am I that God would be mindful of me and my needs? Who am I, in all my sin, to deserve this? On top of this, I was blessed at worship this morning just by a brother being willing to pray with me for me and my family. Can't remember the last time somebody offered to do that. So thanks Jason, that meant more than you probably knew. Who am I that these needs, financial to spiritual to home life would be met? The message of the gospel speaks to the question and says that even when we were dead in our sin, Christ died for us so that God does not see my wretchedness but instead the righteousness of Christ covering me. So I repent of my sin and my shortcomings and pray that God would continue to work in me for this recovery and I thank Him for His provision and grace.

The Kite Runner and the Gospel

A really cool thing that I have enjoyed as a new hobby has been reading. I was never a big reader growing up and it was only about 5-6 months ago that I really got into it. It started with a lot of John Grisham books...I love the law and order type stuff. I read a few christian books and then just recently finished the Kite Runner. First impressions were that this was a great book about a mans redemption from past sins. I finished the book though, took a step back and realized that this really had nothing to do with the gospel. Not that I thought that a book centered in afghanistan with muslim references would be gospel centered but it made me recognize again just how the great the gospel is. The short version of the book is basically this...a man is haunted his entire life by sins he committed in his youth and the only way for him to atone for them, to make himself feel better about his life, is to go and do this "work" that should be good enough to make things in his life better. Now think about how that compares to the Gospel. I'm so glad that the redemptive work of the cross is enough to atone for all of my sins past and present. That I don't have to depend on my good works for my redemption. I didn't expect that a secular book would remind me of the gospel so much. It goes to show that the gospel can be found everywhere, in every situation. It applies to everything. The book is captivating and is a good read. I would definitely recommend the book for anyone who enjoys a good story.

Prayer Request

I would like to ask for anybody that reads this to remember by brother in prayer. Michael and I have a long history and at one time he actually wasn't my brother. We first met in the 2nd grade playing ball together. We later became best friends in the 5th grade and stayed that way until we were about 16. Michael's past is full of tragedy and confusion and I'm just thankful that he has come out of it with a good head on his shoulders. Michael had always joked about coming to live with us one day when finally one night he called and asked if he actually could. Long story short, michael had family issues that he and his twin brother needed to get away from and knowing that, we accepted. Michael's dad forfeitted his parental rights and my parents became his legal gaurdians. Hence, we are now brothers. Fast forward to now. Michael is going through a bad divorce from his wife. She has just given birth to their daughter and Michael rarely gets to see her. We talked for a while the other day about how hard it was for him to not be able to see her when he wanted to and his wife is making things even more difficult according to him. My heart really goes out to him. I come from a divorced family and know the effects it will have on the child but I can't imagine what he is going through now. I was reminded of our message a few weeks ago about how the gospel can transform even the most jacked up of relationships. I think about all the relationships that are going to be jacked up because of this divorce. Michael's relationship to his wife, to his daughter, to God, to the rest of his family. His wife's relationship to him. His daughter's relationship to him. So many people are affected by this and I just pray that somehow michael could see the redeeming power of the gospel through all of this. I'm trying to get him to come to visit NCCd with us but more than that, I'm trying to show him a non-judgemental, loving attitude from a person who just wants to see him make it through ok. I want him to know that Jesus is our rescuer and he can rescue him from even this. So all that to say would you please pray for michael and his family.

In defense of the Gospel

An opportunity presented itself thsi week as I got into a discussion with a professed atheist about different religions. It seems as though more than just religious people equate the gospel with rules as the atheist continued to compare christianity with having the same god and generally the same rules as other religions. So i began to unpack some of the gospel for him in hopes to give him a different perspective than what he had formed for himself. We spoke about the freedom in the gospel from law and how Jesus and the gospel was the real difference in Christianity. We spoke about God's amazing grace and provision and how we don't have to live guilty, burdened lives measured by rules. It always came back to rules though and even as I tried to steer it away from that and show the beauty of a gospel the frees you rather that burdens you, I'm not sure the point came across.
So it got me thinking about just how big the gospel is. How in this one conversation we only talked about a portion of the gospel. We could have talked about the redemptive work of the gospel or the transforming power of it or event the saving power of it. Maybe a faith that is not defined by rules is what he needed to hear at that point. This was really the first time that I was really intentional with my faith...it wasn't nearly as scary as i thought it would be. God is good, maybe he'll provide another opportunity with the same person adn I can unpack the gospel a little better.

Gospel Parenting

So, to say that I have had writers block would be an understatement. But this is something that we may need some help with so here goes...

We (melissa and I) have changed, er...adapted, our way of parenting. Since being at NCCd and learning about the gospel and the difference between it and what we have been taught we decided to apply this knowledge to the way we parent Caleb. So basically it's like this...We want to raise our children to know that we love them...period. There is nothing they can do to earn our love or make us love them more or less. There may be times when we are more proud or more disappointed but our love is constant. Kinda like the gospel. We want Caleb to obey us because he loves us not in order to gain our love. Compare that to the gospel, we are obedient to Christ as an outpouring of our love for Him. Not because we are trying to do something in order for Him to love us.
This works pretty good for us in most parts. When Caleb gets in trouble, we always assure him that we love him but his behavior is not acceptable. When we discipline him (because believe it or not, 19 month old boys are not perfect angels as some would believe) our love for him is the center of discipline. The hard part comes in praising him. Because we do not want him to desire to do good things, instead we want him to do good things because he loves us and knows we love him. We hope that progresses when he is older to doing good things as a result of his relationship with Christ. We try to steer clear of the word "good," as in "Caleb you were good today" or "Be good at day care." The struggle is this...how do you praise your children and encourage good behavior without associating good works with acceptance? I'm beginning to wonder if instead of avoiding "good" we should emphasize "Jesus" more...Any ideas?

"Man Up"

Above everything else heard today, those words resonated with me the most. I love my wife very much, i treasure her, she is beautiful and caring and patient and loves me much more than i deserve. Men can be pretty sorry in today's society. We are lazy, prideful and don't want to accept responsibility for our actions so our women end up doing our jobs for us. Why should they take the burden of our jobs on top of the jobs they already have? It's not fair to put that off on them.

So all that to say that our message today was on NCCd's stand on women's role in the church and from that i was convicted to be a better husband to my wife.

We (men) are the ones responsible for leading our families and churches. We are the ones who should stand up and take the responsibilities God gave us. We should "man up."

So many people misquote Paul in saying that wives should submit to their husbands and never look at the next line that says husbands love your wives as christ loved the church.


Not that i think that i am a bad husband but i know that i can do better. i can love my wife as christ loves the church...a sacrifical love where her wants and needs are always put before mine.


I pray that god would help and guide me to be the man of my family and the man in the church that he has called me to be. that he would teach us as well as our wives to glorify him by being obedient to the roles that he has set for us.

funny but true

a good day

i had a really cool experience tonight. my best friend growing up, who i haven't spoken to in almost a year called me out of the blue to share with me the news of their pregnancy. me and josh shared everything growing up, we were very much inseparable. but as you grow older relationships fade as life goes on. we still speak but rarely. it was more than a catching up conversation though. the last time i saw josh was at my ordination last year. i was very much the religionist then. tonight i shared with josh the joys of not only our new church but more importantly what the gospel was doing in my life and my desire for him to experience the same. we talked about traditional church, contemporary music, the work of christ and the need for humility in most churches. great conversation. he is like me and has grown up in traditional church and i pray that god would open his eyes and show him the magnitude of the gospel. it was a great conversation and i think he and his wife will join us at new city soon.

also had some anxiety today. we have a funeral to go to tomorrow for a good friend of my wife's family who was also somewhat of a "patriarch" at our last church. he was a wonderful godly man who from i could tell in the short time i knew him loved Jesus very much. with the funeral though comes being face to face with many of the reason's we left the last church. it's tough to be humble and love some people regardless of any feelings we have about them. Jesus said that the second greatest commandment is to love our neighbor as ourselves. who is our neighbor? these people would certainly qualify as mine. if the gospel is going to work through us we have to move past our issues with our neighbors. Jesus moved past our issues so we really have no choice but to look past theirs if we desire to be like christ. pray for me that god would cover me with humility and allow someone to see the gospel working through me.

On a different note

Living Intentionally

The idea of intentional living has been resonating in my heart for a few weeks. Intentional meaning that in the things that I say, the things I do and the way I portray myself all point towards Christ. I do it intentionally. I have never been a very outgoing person so this can be difficult. To be intentional you have to put yourself out there. Open yourself to rejection and seclusion from friends. But on the other hand you could plant a seed in someone that may not have been planted had you not been intentional with the gospel. So this has been weighing heavily on me for a while and I finally made my first step. Nothing major but at band practice some people hanging out downtown heard us playing and asked to come in. We played for them and as they were walking out I invited them to church. I felt burdened to do it. Not in a bad way but it weighed heavy on my heart to speak to them. It was kind of a rush though :) So here goes being intentional...this may be fun.

So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. 1 Corinthians 10:31

Frustrations and Observations

The things you don't see happening in most churches will surprise you if you ever have your eyes opened. Here a few things that, after observing from past experiences and speaking with several people in similar situations, I have found to be fatal to churchs.



1. Inability to place Jesus as the head of the church

2. Lack of vision or ability to convey the vision to the congregation

3. Churches led by congregation

4. Lack of leadership from the senior pastor

5. More emphasis placed on buildings than the work Christ

6. A desire to stay the same (regarding methodology not theology)

7. The congregations refusal to submit to the authority of the Pastor and the Pastor's inability to require it.

Just food for thought.

So glad I'm a part of church with a clear vision and strong leadership to implement it.

Brilliant Creator

When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place,4 what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?

Psalm 8:3-4



I did something this past weekend that I have wanted to do for a very long time. I hung a hammock! Once I laid down in it I began to look at all of God's creation around me. The trees and the brush and the grass. I listened to the birds sing, watched the sky and the clouds move. It made me feel somewhat insignificant thinking about the vastness of creation. God is so amazing though when you think about how creation is so perfect. How we have light and darkness, rain and shine, the processes of our environment that work so perfect and complex that only God himself could come up. A song I have recently learned has a line that says nothing is greater, brilliant creator, friend of mine. How true that nothing is greater than God and His brilliance but yet He still pursues us.

Dirty Rags

The biggest change that has come in my life since leaving traditional church has been humility. If you take away the things that you thought made you godly and realize they were just idols and sources of pride it can leave you very humble. Religion is so works based that it can leave you with a great sense of accomplishment. All the things that I once held in such high regard have since been made know to me as rubbish. We can be such a prideful people and take such pride in the things we do when all that really matters is Jesus. When you shift your focus from the things that you do to the thing that Jesus did, you begin to do things not to add to your resume but to please and honor Christ. I took great pride in that I was a youth pastor, ordained, licensed to preach, led service when the pastor was away, preached at other churches, preached at revival. When I began to see that Christ did the only thing that matters, these idols became in my heart just what they really were, a pile of filthy rags. You have to learn to let go of the works and see the cross as an all encompassing work. He died not so we could build bigger buildings and take pride in our accomplishments but to boast in what He did and take that message to world.

In Phillippians 3 Paul runs off an amazing list of His qualifications for righteousness under the law. This is the same as our righteousness by works mentality. The things that we think will bring us closer to God. He goes on to say in verse 8 that he counts all these things as rubbish compared to the knowledge of Christ.

I have come to learn that all that I have done previosly, all my works, my credentials, my accomplishments and qualifications are just that...rubbish. A pile of rags compared to the knowledge of Christ Jesus. It is good that I have seperated myself from these things and can see Jesus in light of what He is...my savior king who saves me because of my faith in Him not because of my works.

Why a blog?

Not sure why. I've come a long way in the past 4 months in my relationship with Christ. I've found a new church family, I'm learning what gospel truly means, I'm learning what it means to be a gospel based Christian instead of a religion based one, I'm learning about community, opening up to new relationships, being a part of the kingdom here in my city. I have a lot of new things going through my mind right now and I just think and process things better when they are put down in words. I am a recovering religionist. I have discovered that most of my Christian life has been spent missing the point. Gone are the days of legalism and moralism and false facades, fronts and barriers and closed minded thinking. I have much to learn. It is a struggle to relearn things you thought you knew for so long. So while I am recovering from religion (which will be LONG process) it is my hope that Christ be glorified. I'm sure if he can transform me than His glory will be evident.